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I, Nebulous

by Puppets Of Castro

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BEFORE I DROP DEAD 04:15
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BEFORE I TURN TWENTY, GONNA TAKE A YEAR OFF AND GO BACKPACKING THROUGH FRANCE BEFORE I TURN TWENTY, MAYBE GO TO MEXICO, GO TO COLLEGE, I DON’T KNOW, WIRE MY DAD FOR CASH I’LL HAVE AN AFFAIR, YA, WITH AN OLDER WOMAN WHOSE FORTY TWO THE THINGS I’M GONNA DO, BEFORE I TURN TWENTY BEFORE I TURN THIRTY, I’LL BACK ALL MY STUDENT LOANS BY SELLING MY KIDNEYS BEFORE I TURN THIRTY I’LL FALL IN LOVE A FEW TIMES AND WHEN IT’S BREAKAWAY TIME I’LL EXPLAIN IT’S NOT THEM, IT’S ME BEFORE I TURN THIRTY I’LL DO A LITTLE TRAVELING AND FIND MYELF IN DEBT FROM ALL THE GIRLS I’VE MET, BEFORE I TURN THIRTY THEN I’LL MARRY SOMEONE CUTE NAME OUR KIDS TINA AND TED THEN I GUESS I’LL WORRY THAT I’LL NEVER GET TO DO THE THINGS I ALWAYS THOUGHT I’D DO BEFORE I DROP DEAD BEFORE I TURN SIXTY, I’LL TRY TO READ A BOOK AND I’LL FIND IT HARD TO SEE BEFORE I TURN SIXTY, I’LL NOTICE THAT THROUGH THE YEARS MY HAIR GROWS IN MY NOSE AND EARS NOT WHERE IT USED TO BE I’LL HAVE AN AFFAIR, YA, WITH A YOUNGER WOMAN OF FORTY TWO THAT’S WHAT I’M GONNA DO, BEFORE I TURN SIXTY I’LL HATE WHAT’S HAPPENED TO MY FACE AND I’LL HAVE TO SLOW MY PACE AND THEN THEY’LL HIRE A YOUNGER MAN TO TAKE MY PLACE MY KNEES ARE GOING TO CRACK AND I’LL CURSE MY ACHING BACK AND IS THAT INDIGESTION OR A HEART ATTACK? BEFORE I DROP DEAD, I’LL WONDER IF I SHOULD HAVE DONE SOME THINGS DIFFERENTLY BEFORE I DROP DEAD, I’LL TRY TO WRITE MY MEMOIRS, BUT CAN ONLY GET SO FAR AS I CONSTANTLY GOTTA PEE I’LL MAKE SURE MY AFFAIRS ARE ALL IN ORDER SO MY GRANDKIDS WON’T GET SCREWED THAT’S WHAT I’M GOING TO DO, BEFORE I DROP DEAD.
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THE BIG SNOOZE 04:09
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I REMEMBER KATIE SWIMMING. AH, SHE MADE ME NERVOUS WHEN SHE SMILED AND I WAS A FRIEND OF A FRIEND WHO BARELY KNEW HER THEN, BUT I PURSUED HER I WON’T SAY HOW I FINALLY GAINED HER AFFECTION, LET’S JUST SAY IT INVOLVED TOO MUCH WINE AND LATER WHEN OUR KIDS WOULD ASK ABOUT OUR EARLY DAYS, WE WOULD LIE AND WHAT WERE WE THINKING, WE WEREN’T THINKING AT ALL THAT WAS THEN, BUT I DIGRESS WHO’D HAVE DREAMED WE’D SETTLE FOR SO MUCH LESS WHO’D HAVE KNOWN WE’D SO EASILY BRUISE MAYBE NOW WOULD BE A GOOD TIME FOR THE BIG SNOOZE WE BELIEVED IN CAUSES THEN, WE WERE A PRODUCT OF OUR TIME AND MAYBE AFTER ALL WE DID SOME GOOD BUT WE’RE DISHEARTENED WHAT WERE WE THINKING, WE WEREN’T THINKING AT ALL THAT WAS THEN, BUT I DIGRESS WHO’D HAVE DREAMED WE’D SETTLE FOR SO MUCH LESS WHO’D HAVE KNOWN WE’D SO EASILY BRUISE MAYBE NOW WOULD BE A GOOD TIME FOR THE BIG SNOOZE GOT IN THE CAR AND STARTED DRIVING. HEADED EAST AND JUST KEPT DRIVING RAN OUT OF GAS IN JUST FOUR MILES, AND SAT THERE ALL ALONE AND THEN TOOK A CAB BACK HOME KATIE SAYS I SEEM TO BE DRIFTING. SHE SAYS MAYBE WE SHOULD GET A DOG AND I LAUGH AND SAY THAT IS SO PATHETIC. WHAT’LL WE NAME HIM AND WHAT ARE WE THINKING, WE AREN’T THINKING AT ALL THAT WAS THEN, BUT I DIGRESS WHO’D HAVE DREAMED WE’D SETTLE FOR SO MUCH LESS WHO’D HAVE KNOWN WE’D SO EASILY BRUISE
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PROFESSIONAL HELP 03:44
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I’M A WRECK, I CONCEDE THERE IS CLEARLY SOMEONE THAT I NEED NOT LANGSTON HUGHES OR EZRA POUND. NO, I NEED SOMEONE WHO CAN TALK ME DOWN I NEED PROFESSIONAL HELP. YA THAT’S JUST WHAT I NEED NOW I CAN’T COMPLAIN, BUT YOU LIKE WHEN I DO IN FIFTY MINUTES I WILL BE SO IN LOVE WITH YOU RULES BE DAMNED, I’VE WATCHED YOUR EYES I’VE SEEN A TEAR OR TWO AS I’VE DESCRIBED TORTURED YOUTH, LOVE BETRAYED HOW I’M HAUNTED BY MISTAKES I’VE MADE I NEED PROFESSIONAL HELP. YA THAT’S JUST WHAT I NEED NOW I CAN’T COMPLAIN, BUT YOU LIKE WHEN I DO. YA JUST ONE SESSION IS ALL I’LL NEED TO BE IN LOVE WITH YOU YES I KNOW WHAT YOU’RE SAYING THAT IT’S NOTHING BUT TRANSFERENCE BUT I DON’T THINK THAT IT MAKES A DIFFERENCE AS LONG AS I HAVE GOT INSURANCE I DON’T KNOW WHAT YOU’RE THINKING ABOUT BUT YOU KNOW WHAT I’M THINKING ABOUT AND THAT SCARES ME WELL ETHICS, SHMETHICS, TIMES UP, LET’S GO GET SOME COFFEE MY MISTAKE, I’M CONFUSED. I MAY HAVE POSSIBLY MISREAD THE CUES MY FAUX PAS, BUT MAYBE NOT. WELL I STILL HAVEN’T GOT A CLUE OF WHAT I’VE GOT I NEED PROFESSIONAL HELP, YA THAT’S JUST WHAT I NEED NOW I CAN’T COMPLAIN, BUT YOU LIKE WHEN I DO. IN FIFTY MINUTES I WILL BE SO IN LOVE WITH YOU
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IMAGINARY SO-CALLED FRIENDS 03:57
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BRENDA’S ON THE BRIDGE TONIGHT SHE SITS ON THE RAILING AND WAITS AROUND HER FRIENDS SHOULD BE HERE ANYTIME AND JUST LIKE THE LAST TIME THEY’LL TALK HER DOWN DON’T LET A GOOD FRIEND WALK AWAY CAUSE SOMETIMES THEY’RE RATHER HARD TO FIND MAYBE YOU’RE BETTER OFF IF THEY ONLY EXIST INSIDE YOUR MIND IMAGINARY SO-CALLED FRIENDS SHE SAID SHE SHOULD FIND BETTER ONES I CAN’T HELP BUT TELL HER I THINK THAT’S TRUE SHE SAYS IN THE END I’M HER ONLY REAL FRIEND BUT I HATE TO TELL HER I’M MADE-UP TOO SO DON’T LET A GOOD FRIEND WALK AWAY CAUSE SOMETIMES THEY’RE RATHER HARD TO FIND MAYBE YOU’RE BETTER OFF IF THEY ONLY EXIST INSIDE YOUR MIND IMAGINARY SO-CALLED FRIENDS TAKE PAINS TO KNOW WHO YOUR FRIENDS ARE TAKES BRAINS TO THINK THEY’RE OK I BET I KNOW WHAT SHE’S THINKING I SAID IT’S PRETTY COLD TONIGHT SHE SAID SHE JUST WANTED TO BE ALONE I GAVE HER MY SWEATER THEN SHE GAVE ME HER HAND AND I WALKED HER HOME SO DON’T LET A GOOD FRIEND WALK AWAY CAUSE SOMETIMES THEY’RE RATHER HARD TO FIND MAYBE YOU’RE BETTER OFF IF THEY ONLY EXIST INSIDE YOUR MIND IMAGINARY SO-CALLED FRIENDS
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GUERNICA 03:02
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WE ARGUE TILL NOON, THEN DRIVE TO THE MUSEUM RIGHT DOWN FAIRFAX, NEXT TAKE A LEFT AT THIRD AND YOU’LL BE RIGHT ON THE SPOT WHERE SHE BREAKS MY HEART GUERNICA, THE PIECE BY PICASSO IT’S THERE SHE SAYS SHE’S LEAVING I SAY I DON’T UNDERSTAND SHE SIGHS AND SAYS IT SHOWS MAN’S CONTEMPT FOR MAN I TELL HER, NO, I WAS SPEAKING OF OUR LOVE, NOT THE PAINTING SHE TELLS ME HER ANSWER’S THE SAME, EITHER WAY DINOSAURS, TAR PITS, AND PIGEONS MY DOG JIM, CHASES A FRISBEE, AND THEN RUNS AWAY THIS IS JUST NOT MY DAY I HOPE THAT MY DOG’S OK
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JUST BECAUSE 03:27
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I KIND OF FREAKED OUT WHEH I WOKE UP WITH YOUR FACE SO CLOSE TO MINE I JERKED UP, YOU NEEDED SEVEN STITCHES, I GOT NINE I WAS FEELING KIND OF WHOOZY, WHICH MIGHT HAVE BEEN LOVE OR JUST THE LOSS OF SO MUCH BLOOD BUT WE HAD FUN IN THE ER DIDN’T WE WE HAD FUN IN THE ER, OH YA WATCHING TV, STEALING SUPPLIES, WHAT WILL WE DO WITH ALL THAT GAUZE YOU SAID LET’S DO THIS AGAIN, I SAID WHY, YOU SAID JUST BECAUSE WELL WHAT A GREAT IDEA TO BREAK INTO THE POOL AT THE HOLIDAY INN WE TOOK OFF ALL OUR CLOTHES, AT THREE IN THE MORNING WE WENT FOR A SWIM BUT IT’S POST 9/11, SECURITY’S TIGHT, THAT WAS NICE THAT THEY GAVE US ROBES BUT WE HAD FUN IN THE SQUAD CAR, DIDN’T WE WE HAD FUN WITH THE POLICEMAN, OH YA WE GAVE HIM DIRECTIONS, HE SAID “I’M NOT A CAB, YOU VIOLATED DECENCY LAWS” YOU SAID WE’D DO IT AGAIN, HE SAID WHY, YOU SAID JUST BECAUSE WELL TO TELL YOU THE TRUTH, NONE OF THIS HAPPENED, WE JUST MADE IT UP NOT WE’RE NOT THAT QUIRKY, WE DRIVE TO WORK WE WATCH TV OR READ A BOOK WE EAT CHINESE LEFTOVERS FROM THE FRIDGE IF THIS HAD HAPPENED IN THE FIRST VERSE INSTEAD OF THE BRIDGE YOU WOULDN’T HAVE LISTENED FOR SO LONG MAYBE TIME WILL TELL, WE’LL BE THE FIRST COUPLE TO HAVE SEX IN SPACE OR MAYBE GO TO JAIL FOR THROWING A PIE INTO PRESIDENT TRUMP’S FACE AH BUT FAR MORE LIKELY WE’LL JUST GROW OLD AND RETIRE TO RURAL SASKATCHEWAN AND WE’LL HAVE FUN ON THE FRONT PORCH WON’T WE WE’LL HAVE FUN ON THE PORCH SWING, OH YA WE’LL SWING TILL WE’RE DIZZY AND REFLECT ON OUR LIVES WITH ALL IT’S ENNUI AND FLAWS, YOU’D SAY YOU’D DO IT AGAIN I’LL SAY WHY, YOU’LL SAY JUST BECAUSE
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WAY TOO LONG 04:34
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IT’S BEEN WAY TOO LONG SINCE I THREW UP MY KEYCHAIN AND TRIED TO CATCH IT, AND RUINED MY HAND WHO CARES WHO WAS WRONG, IT’S TIME WE BURIED THE HATCHET LET’S BOTH SAY WE’RE SORRY, READY, ONE….TWO….THREE….GO IT’S BEEN WAY TOO LONG SINCE I PLAYED THE BAGPIPES THAT YOU BOUGHT FOR MY BIRTHDAY, WHY I DON’T KNOW YOU’D SAID PLAY ME A SONG, THOUGH I’D HAD NO LESSONS IT TOOK ME AN HOUR JUST TO FIND WHERE TO BLOW IT’S BEEN WAY TOO LONG SINCE WE ACTED LIKE CHILDREN AND DANCED TO BILLY IDOL’S ‘DANCING WITH MYSELF’ IT’S BEEN WAY TOO LONG SINCE I TOLD YOU I LOVED YOU OR BOUGHT YOU A ROSE, OR CALLED TO SAY HI OH MY, I REMEMBER THAT NIGHT IN ST. CROIX WHEN WE COULD NOT STOP LAUGHING THEN IT ALL BECAME ROUTINE, WE FELL INTO PATTERNSz IT’S BEEN WAY TOO LONG SINCE THINGS WERE UNPLANNED WHO CARES IF THE NEIGHBORS COMPLAIN OF THE RACKET THESE BAGPIPES ARE HEAVY, HERE, LEND ME A HAND
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STAY HERE IN THE CAR 04:23
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SHE’S CUTTING UP A SALMON WITH A SHARP KNIFE I SAID YOU HAVEN’T COOKED SINCE YOU WERE TWENTY TWO I GUESS I SHOULD BE CARFUL, SHE’S MY EX-WIFE SHE WAVES THE BLADE, SAYS WATCH IT OR I’LL USE THIS ON YOU SHE CLIMBS UP TO THE ATTIC AND I FOLLOW SHE BLOWS DUST OFF THE BOX THAT HOLDS HER WEDDING DRESS SHE MOTIONS ME TO TURN AROUND, AND CHANGES THEN ASKS ME IF IT FITS HER AND I ANSWER YES AND WHEN SHE’S BURNT OUR FOOD WE DRIVE AROUND, WE PARK, WE WATCH THE STARS LET’S GO TO YOUR HOUSE OR WE COULD GO TO MY HOUSE I DON’T CARE, WHICHEVER PLACE WE ARE TIGHT SQUEEZE, BRUISED KNEES, I CAN’T FIND THE CAR KEYS AH HELL, MAY AS WELL STAY HERE IN THE CAR I ASK HER WHY SHE CALLED ME OUT OF NOWHERE SHE SAID SHE WASN’T SURE BUT THOUGHT IT MIGHT BE FUN THERE MUST HAVE BEEN GOOD REASONS I DIVORCED HER BUT STARING AT THE MOON I CAN’T REMEMBER ONE WE MUST BE NUCKING FUTS, I THINK ABOUT IT, YA, WE’RE NUCKING FUTS LET’S GO TO YOUR HOUSE OR WE COULD GO TO MY HOUSE I DON’T CARE, LET’S FIND SOME STINKING BAR TIGHT SQUEEZE, BRUISED KNEES, I CAN’T FIND THE CAR KEYS AH HELL, MAY AS WELL STAY HERE IN THE CAR I FALL ASLEEP AND DREAM THAT I AM DYING THERE IS REALLY NOTHING THAT THE DOCTORS CAN DO SHE IS THERE BESIDE ME AND SHE’S CRYING BUT HER TEARS ARE NOT FOR ME BUT FOR A SHOW ON THE TUBE AND WHEN MY DREAM IS THROUGH, I SEE HER FACE, HER SMILE, I DRY HER TEAR LET’S GO TO YOUR HOUSE OR WE COULD GO TO MY HOUSE, I DON’T CARE, WHICHEVER PLACE WE ARE TIGHT SQUEEZE, BRUISED KNEES, I CAN’T FIND THE CAR KEYS, AH HELL, MAY AS WELL STAY HERE IN THE CAR
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CITY IN MY HEAD 03:15
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THERE IS A CITY IN MY HEAD. THE PEOPLE WHO LIVE THERE ARE THE AUTHORS I’VE READ SOME OF THEM ARE LIVING, BUT MOST OF THEM ARE DEAD YES, THIS IS THE CITY IN MY HEAD JACK KEROUAC IS INCREDIBLY NEAT IT’S AMAZING HOW MUCH SAUSAGE UPTON SINCLAIR CAN EAT THEY’RE HAVING A PARTY UP IN HEMINGWAY’S FLAT CAUSE THAT’S WHERE ALL THE FREE ALCOHOL IS AT SIGMOND FREUD WON’T SHUT UP ABOUT SIN AND HENRY MILLER’S HITTING ON ANAIS NIN AND NO ONE UNDERSTANDS WHAT WILLIAM BURROUGHS SAID AND SYLVIA PLATH IS DANCING WITH A LAMPSHADE ON HER HEAD I WOULDN’T MIND IF THEY’D INVITE ME IN TONIGHT CAUSE AFTER ALL THEY’RE IN MY BRAIN BUT HEMINGWAY SAID NO, YOU HAVEN’T MADE A NAME HE SAID NOW DON’T FORGET, YOU HAVEN’T PUBLISHED YET THERE IS A CITY IN MY BRAIN, WITH MELVILLE, TOLSTOY, DOSTOEVSKY AND TWAIN WHAT DANIELLE STEELE’S DOING THERE, I’D RATHER NOT EXPLAIN YES, THIS IS THE CITY IN MY BRAIN GEORGE ORWELL’S THINKING THINGS ARE WORSE THAN HE’D FEARED AND WALT WHITMAN’S MAKING FUN OF ALLEN GINSBERG’S BEARD AND HUNTER THOMPSON MUMBLES, SO WHO KNOWS WHAT HE’S SAYING AND J. D. SALINGER’S GONE MISSING ONCE AGAIN I MOVE TO FRANCE AND I SIT IN CAFES BUT IT’S HARD TO WRITE A BOOK WHEN YOU’VE GOT NOTHING TO SAY IN THREE YEARS ALL I FINISHED WAS THE DEDICATION PAGE EXACTLY WHEN I’LL PUBLISH IS A LITTLE HARD TO GAUGE I SMELL GIN BUT HEMINGWAY WON’T LET ME IN HE MAKES A VALID POINT WHICH IS TOO BAD IF IT’S NOT COOL IT’S ME WHO MADE THE RULE HE SAYS HE MUST INSIST I NEED TO BE PUBLISHED I SHOULDN’T HAVE READ THAT BOOK THE ONE BY DONALD TRUMP BECAUSE HE WON’T SHUT UP NO HE NEVER SHUTS UP I BETTER TAKE IT EASY AND LET MY MIND RELAX OR I WILL BE THE SUBJECT OF A BOOK BY DR. OLIVER SACHS I WOULDN’T MIND IF MAYBE THEY WOULD BE SO KIND TO KEEP THE VOLUME DOWN TO A QUIET ROAR I CANNOT GET TO SLEEP, I TAKE TAKE ANYMORE THIS CITY IN MY HEAD MAKES ME WISH I’D NEVER READ
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IT'S A GOOD THING 03:43
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IT’S GOOD THING MY HEART IS WITHDRAWN AND REMOTE CAUSE IF IT WEREN’T THEN IT MIGHT JUST GET BROKEN AND IT’S A GOOD THING MY WORDS, THEY GET STUCK IN MY THROAT CAUSE IF THEY DIDN’T THEN THEY MIGHT JUST GET SPOKEN I BELIEVE THAT ANYONE WHO’S DUMB ENOUGH TO FALL IN LOVE DESERVES WHAT THEY GET IN THE LONG RUN THERE’S A MAP ON HER WALL AND A DART IN HER HAND AND WHERE IT LANDS WE AGREE’S WHERE WE’LL HEAD TO SO SHE CLOSES HER EYES, AND SHE LETS THE DART FLY AND IT SAILS THROUGH THE DOOR TO HER BEDROOM SO I SAY LET’S GO THERE THE WATER’S SAFE, THE WEATHER’S FAIR AND WE WON’T HAVE TO CHANGE OUR MONEY FOR ME TO BE IN LOVE SO DEEP IS LIKE WALKING WITH MY FOOT ASLEEP IT MAKES ME FEEL SOMEWHAT UNBALANCED AND IT’S A GOOD THING HER TRAIN ISN’T RUNNING ON TIME SO WE CAN HAVE THESE FEW MOMENTS TOGETHER NO WE HAVE NO REGRETS, YES IT’S ALL FOR THE BEST AND I TELL HER I WON’T SOON FORGET HER DENVER GETS WAY TOO COLD TO BE STANDING HERE TOE TO TOE AFRAID TO LET GO OF EACH OTHER
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YELLOW CAR 02:35
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I USED TO HAVE A SOUL BUT YOU TOOK MY SOUL AND BEAT IT ON A ROCK LIKE A PEASANT ON THE GANGES CLEANS HER SHIRT I USED TO HAVE A LIFE BUT YOU TOOK MY LIFE AND STUCK IT IN A HOLE LIKE THE E.P.A. DOES WITH TOXIC DIRT YOU TELL ME THAT’S THE BEST YOU CAN DO YOU SCREWED MY LIFE UP AND WHEN YOU FIGURED WE WERE THROUGH YOU GOT INTO YOUR YELLOW CAR AND AS YOU DROVE PAST ME FOR THE INTERSTATE I SAW THE FRAME ON YOUR LICENSE PLATE IT SAID I WOULD RATHER BE LEAVING MY BOYFRIEND WELL IT DIDN’T SAY I’D RATHER BE SKIING OR I’D RATHER BE PEEING OR I’D RATHER BE DEAD, IT JUST SAID I WOULD RATHER BE LEAVING MY BOYFRIEND YA I WOULD RATHER BE LEAVING MY BOYFRIEND I NEVER HAD FAITH IN THE HUMAN RACE BUT EVEN IF I DID I’M SURE YOU WOULD HAVE FLUSHED IT DOWN THE DRAIN NOW OF COURSE I’M A CARTOON CORPSE STEAM ROLLER, SPATULA, SCRAPE ME UP, I CAN’T STAND THIS PAIN YOU TELL ME THAT’S THE BEST YOU CAN DO YOU MESSED MY MIND UP WHEN YOU FIGURED WE WERE THROUGH YOU GOT INTO YOUR YELLOW CAR AND AS YOU DROVE PAST ME FOR THE INTERSTATE I SAW THE FRAME ON YOUR LICENSE PLATE IT SAID I WOULD RATHER BE LEAVING MY BOYFRIEND WELL IT DIDN’T SAY I’D RATHER BE SKIING OR I’D RATHER BE PEEING OR I’D RATHER BE DEAD, IT JUST SAID I WOULD RATHER BE LEAVING MY BOYFRIEND WELL IT DIDN’T SAY I’D RATHER BE NASCAR DRIVING OR VOODOO FIGHTING OR NUDE SKY DIVING OR GARBAGE HOARDING, BLUE CHEESE SNORTING OR WATER BOARDING OR LAUNDRY SORTING MAYBE I’D RATHER GET A NOSE TATOO WITH A PROFILE ON BOTH SIDES OF YOU AND EVEN THOUGH I’M SURE IT WOULD’VE HURT A GREAT DEAL I’D HAVE DONE IT FOR YOU, THAT’S THE WAY THAT I FEEL AND AS YOU DROVE PAST ME FOR THE INTERSTATE I SAW THE FRAME ON YOUR LICENSE PLATE IT SAID I WOULD RATHER BE LEAVING MY BOYFRIEND WELL IT DIDN’T SAY I’D RATHER BE SKIING OR I’D RATHER BE PEEING OR I’D RATHER BE DEAD, IT JUST SAID I WOULD RATHER BE LEAVING MY BOYFRIEND YA I WOULD RATHER BE LEAVING MY BOYFRIEND
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A ZEN-LIKE STATE OF AMBIVALENCE 05:19
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I WANT TO LIVE IN A LOVELESS MARRIAGE. GROW OLD AND BE A BURDON TO MY SON WHO HAS MY JOURNAL PRINTED ONLINE AND I’M JEERED BY CHILDREN, AFRAID TO GO OUTSIDE I WANT TO DRIVE A DIRT BROWN PACER. WITH BROKEN DOORS SO I HAVE TO CRAWL INSIDE THROUGH A HOLE IN THE FLOORBOARD THAT’S JAGGED AND RUSTY AND THE MUFFLER DRAGS, AND IT DOESN’T TURN RIGHT NO I DON’T KNOW WHAT THERE IS TO BELIEVE, I GREET EACH DAY WITH INDIFFERENCE NOW I KNOW JUST WHAT I WANT TO ACHIEVE, A ZEN-LIKE STATE OF AMBIVALENCE, A ZEN-LIKE STATE OF AMBIVALENCE I WANT TO LEARN THAT MY BEST FRIEND DAVE HAS SLEPT WITH EVERYONE I’VE EVER LOVED AND HE TAKES THE EARNEST LETTERS I’VE WRITTEN HIM AND READS THEM AT PARTIES, AND EVERYBODY’S LAUGHING I WANT TO FIND THAT EVERY PAINTING, EVERY NOVEL AND EVERY SONG THAT EVER MOVED ME OR SHOOK MY EMOTIONS WAS GROSSLY MISINTERPRETED, I GOT THEM ALL WRONG NO I DON’T KNOW WHAT THERE IS TO BELIEVE, I GREET EACH DAY WITH INDIFFERENCE NOW I KNOW JUST WHAT I WANT TO ACHIEVE, A ZEN-LIKE STATE OF AMBIVALENCE, A ZEN-LIKE STATE OF AMBIVALENCE MAYBE IT’S JUST A BAD DAY, MAYBE TOMORROW I’LL BE OK YA WHEN PIGS CAN FLY AND GO SKIING IN ASPEN, MAYBE I NEED A FEW MORE ASPIRIN I WANT TO BE THE LAST ONE STANDING. I WANT TO DIE WITH A STUPID GRIN I WANT TO BE THE LEADER OF A MOB WHO STAND THERE LIKE ZOMBIES AND REPEAT IN UNISON I DON’T KNOW WHAT THERE IS TO BELIEVE, I GREET EACH DAY WITH INDIFFERENCE NOW I KNOW JUST WHAT I WANT TO ACHIEVE, A ZEN-LIKE STATE OF AMBIVALENCE, A ZEN-LIKE STATE OF AMBIVALENCE

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This album features both Darryl Purpose and Andrew Lorand on vocals. Original and witty songs that do not insult your intelligence.

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released April 17, 2017

Andrew Lorand wrote the songs, backed up by the rest of Puppets of Castro, including Marty RIfkin (Bruce Springsteen). Darryl Purpose guest vocalist.

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Puppets Of Castro Los Angeles, California

"Witty, Intelligent pop", says the OC Weekly. Features the songs of Andrew Lorand and the vocals of Darryl Purpose, Matthew Mars, and backed by a great band who don't mind that their names are not mentioned here. One hopes. Artwork and design by Yehuda Blum. Produced by Greg Krueger. Enjoy. ... more

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